The New "Private" MILF Diary.

Hey y'all!

This blog is now over.

I guess maybe it's symbolic in a way... closing the door on one chapter of my life and opening up a new one... but in a much more private way.

MySpace allows me to select who reads my blog, who sees the pictures I post, and who comments, and I like that idea a lot better than this open forum. Over 1000 people a day read this... I do not know 9/10ths of these people...

There are a few reasons why this blog is shutting down.

1. Picutures of Kyla. I still want to be able to share photos of her with family/friends... and will do so in a private ofoto album... and I will share pictures of her with my friends on MySpace who I invite to view my journal. The incident with this wackjob stealing the photos really got to me. I tried to brush it off... but it's creepy and I do not want to keep posting more pictures for anyone to take and exploit. This blog will stay up until I figure out how to copy all of it... I do have some things recorded here that I want to keep, but there will not be any more posts.

2. My life has changed significantly since I started journaling online. While many of you have followed my little life story for a while, I feel at this point I don't need to share anymore. I've opened myself up to too much criticism from people who have no right to criticize, and I've shared a number of things that would have been better off private.

In coming to a new understanding about myself, my life, and just life in general, I've decided it's best to keep personaly things personal. Some people have not been able to respect that, and I'm not going to sit here and delete comments and answer to anyone who is nosey... so I'm just not even going to leave it open for discussion.

3. The other side of the coin on the whole "public" thing is that I've had to second guess myself every time I post something that could be used against me. I also feel like I can say what I want to say on a private journal because I have some idea of who my audience is, and will hopefully be able to rest assured that the people reading it are not fishing for dirt on me or making ridiculous judgements, etc... so with a private journal I can be more candid if I so desire.

There are a handful of people who read this blog who I have never met but who have emailed me or commented a lot, and I consider those people friends... if you are one of them and would like to continue to read my crap, please join MySpace and email me... but understand that I am only going to do this for people who I feel I know!

Thank you for reading - and the dirt site isn't going anywhere!!

UPDATE: Here's what you need to do if you want to read the new private journal... it's a pain in the ass, but this is the only way to do it... and if you think it's too much of a hassle, then you probably don't need to be reading it anyway LOL... this is for the few who want to... and I actually think that having it private like this with just a few people will help me to get to know some of you better!

Here's what to do.

1. Sign up for MySpace at www.myspace.com.

2. Find me. www.myspace.com/danasdirt

3. Sent me a Friend Request if you haven't already.

4. Send me a message requesting to be added to my blog list, and PLEASE INCLUDE YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS, the one you used to sign up for MySpace with. This is the ONLY way I can invite you to be on my blog list. There is no easy way to do this, I tried just looking up people's names and if your name is "Jen" I have to go through 100 Jen's to find you... so if I do it by email it's easiest!

Dana

Kyla's 1st Day of School!

OK, well, it's daycare, not school... but to me, it feels like she's at school... and they do all kinds of activities and fun stuff, and this morning, I PACKED HER LUNCH, so it really does seem like school.

I stayed for an hour. My job (hopefully) starts mid-week instead of today... which is good because I really wanted to be able to stay with her for a little while and make sure she was content and adjusting well before I left her. I also need a few days to myself to just chill out, recharge, maybe even take a nap, etc. I haven't had a day to myself in SO LONG!!!

She did so much better than I expected!! Not 5 minutes we were in the room and she wanted to GET DOWN out of my arms... she went right over to a little boy and just started looking at him and doing that "hey I'm checking you out" thing that babies do. She is the youngest in the room, but I think that's a good thing since she'll be able to learn from the older kids. For the first week they told me they will kind of let her do her own thing, explore the room, etc. and next week they'll start trying to adjust her to the structure of the room.

So now I'm like... OK, what do I do with myself. It's COLD here. It's like freaking antarctica, seriously. Overcast for like the upteenth day in a row... it just sucks. IF it was nice I could go lay out or something!

I miss Florida... I know it's nice there, I was looking at a friend's blog with pics of her kids in the pool last week and I was like DAMN I'm a dumbass!! Here it is ALMOST JUNE and I'm in jeans and a sweatshirt, socks, etc... and I really feel like I should have put Kyla in her WINTER hat this morning!!

I had this really bizarre dream about an ex from a long time ago last night... we ran into each other by chance (in the dream)... It's making me a little nuts... but whatever.

:)

Me